Fumbling with Futility

"Fumbling with Futility"
By Cynthia Wilson
5/4/05
Title by Pat Manley

Reality enjoys escape,
without a purpose in life.
How can I discover,
if what I'm doing is right?
I think about all I have done,
and where I'd like to be.
But it just seems,
that I'm fumbling with futility.
The path that I'm on,
could be down the wrong road.
Why am I here,
carrying this heavy load?
I hope this burden can be lifted,
and I will know the direction to take.
Cause no one wants to live,
within a big mistake.

Fear of Vomiting

"Fear of Vomiting"
By Cynthia Wilson
5/4/05
Title by Ben

The sound,
the smell,
and the feeling
of weakness reigns.
It catches you,
off guard,
off center,
off balance.
The core of what you are
loses nourishment,
loses pride,
or loses control.
And that is why
you have a fear of vomiting.